"For most of history, Anonymous was a woman." Virginia Woolf

Monday, September 26, 2005

"Good Afternoon, Diamond, Hasser, Frost, & Luckie"

Astrology.Yahoo.com: One of the most unlikely sources of wisdom.
Right now you feel like you're in limbo, but think of it as more of an astrological waiting room rather than a grey area. You're actually preparing to do something rather daring or out-of-character. Perhaps you're ending an old friendship or relationship that's too limiting, or ready to renew an alliance that has some life in it yet. The stars encourage (and reward) bravery, so get ready, get set ... and go!

Tarot by Facade:

Click for DetailsThe card at the lower left, represents the first decision along your path. The World: Completeness and intricacy of design. A great work. Achievement, reward, and well-earned recognition. A time of success, prosperity, security and joy. May also indicate travel or a change in residence.
Click for DetailsThe card to the far left represents the first false path that may lead you astray. Two of Cups (Love): The perfect harmony of union, in romance, friendship, or business. A deep and palpable connection radiating joy and contentment. A great concordance or pledge of fidelity. The joining of male and female interpreted in the broadest sense. The sanctification of the natural through that which exists on a higher plane. May indicate the meeting of a kindred soul, marriage, engagement, merger, or partnership.
Click for DetailsThe card in the middle represents the second decision along your path. King of Swords: The essence of air, such as a clear blue sky: A mature leader of unwavering ethics and indisputable authority. An incorruptible judge, whose devotion to the law cannot be swayed by emotion or material concerns. Perfect clarity of thought, directness of action, and eloquence of speech. One who, like a great general, inspires not love or devotion, but absolute trust and loyalty.
Click for DetailsThe card at the lower right represents the second false path that may lead you astray. Three of Swords (Sorrow): Unsettling news leading to heartbreak or loneliness. Tactless or hurtful words. Acting without consideration for the emotions of others. Betrayal of trust or confidence. The revelation of a painful truth.
Click for DetailsThe card at the top represents one possible mask of your true destination. Nine of Cups (Happiness): Contentment and satisfaction in romance, friendship, or other relationships. Achieving your deepest desires and savoring beauty and sensual pleasures. A state of joy and abundance radiating fulfillment and bliss.

Fortune cookies:
--You're filled with a sense of urgency. Be patient or you may end up confused.

Orchid, the empathic psychic by iVillage:
--Those butterflies in your stomach should tell you something.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

My horoscope today

Let me preface this by saying, I don't often check my horoscopes. I have issues using obsolete Greek astronomical data to predict my future. But it's fun, and sometimes it's a bit ironic.

>>Snags smooth out when you trust in the universe and take your sticky little fingers off the controls. Hard as it is to believe, you're not actually the one who has final say over how things turn out -- really. That should be welcome news, since that means you can now go ahead and live your life instead of trying to control it. Not only will that release tons of stress and anxiety, but your newfound freedom will give you the willingness to try new things.<<

So laugh, 'cause if you know me, you'll be wanting to right about now. So let go and let someone else decide, eh? Be patient and let things turn out how they will.

Horoscopes 2

But in the fall, someone from your romantic past may be dwelling on you. Your old loyalty may be sparked, but is the connection still there? Let your intuition guide your, especially the weekend of September 16th. In October and November, your mind's on your money and your money's on your mind, but don't exclude the nourishment of a sweet little something in the romance department. Look for a hot holiday party on December 16th or 17th, and as far as New Year's Eve weekend, it's got your name (plus someone else's) written all over it.

We'll see, eh?

Friday, September 9, 2005

daily grind, making money, taking drugs

Yeah, but only the legal kind. I have a cold and I went to CVS to get some over the counter cold medicine. And the little shits who cook up meth these days have made it really inconvinient for me to get my fix. It's behind the counter, you have to show ID, you have to sign something saying you won't make illegal drugs with it. Dude, I just want my nose to stop running and being stuffy.

I got paid today--wasn't much since last week was a shorter week, but it's something. It's enough that I may go out and buy a new bookcase tomorrow-there were some on sale at Office Max.

I talked to an old friend Clayton last night. He may be getting engaged soon. He's definitely thinking about it. I'm happy for him. He's been dating this chick on and off for the last three and a half years. And even better, she reminds him of me--so she has to be a cool chick :) I've known him for nine years now. ..... Yeah. But I still better not be Aunt Jamie for a while, he's got to finish his PhD.

The future is open and I am not as trapped as I feel in this cubicle.

Wednesday, September 7, 2005

in hopes that one day I might be Home

--Long is the round to a false friend leading,
e'en if he dwell on the way:
but though far off fared, to a faithful friend
straight are the roads and short.
--Young was I once, I walked alone,
and bewildered seemed in the way;
then I found me another and rich I thought me,
for man is the joy of man.

Leaving is always the best and worst part. There's always the estacy of being around people who recognize a part of you that not many others do.

We have plans to meet again at Yule, if not before.

And the words that were said, sincere at the time, and mostly meant. Though I wonder at a few.

Something I've been workin' on:

Each mile past, numbness grows
up and into my senses, filling the void:
No longer the smell of moss and earth,
No longer the warm smiles and sunlight
streaming down through the trees
No longer the merry making and swimming
in a mirror of the starry sky.
--I get through the days, sometimes
with the sound of my own laughter,
othertimes, not.
The chill on bathroom tile is distracting
and I am grateful.

Not done, but it's something.. Something's more than nothing, even if it ain't all that good. :)